[der hagelschauer sieht wie ein sternenhimmel bei langzeitbelichtung aus, nur steht er vor dem bildraum. \ zum ersten mal in diesem jahr überfrorene pfützen. das eis bricht einmal, danach wird es nie wieder so schön glatt. \ am abend sehr müde und dazu ein heißes gesicht.]

«Der wesentlichste Zug Brechtscher Bekleidungstheorie hat darin bestanden, daß Kleider vor allem den Körper schützen und reichlich bedecken sollen» (Kebir – Ein akzeptabler Mann?, Berlin 1987).

[kw 47: 20km (pause, erkältet); projekt angefangene bücher teil 1: kebir – ein akzeptabler mann? (75–ende), foer – eating animals (146–ende), rink – ah, das love-ding! (163–ende); kompakt total 1; american horror story (s01e01–03)].

we had found just the right place on the first occasion. it was perfect. you wanted it to be. i said so. even though, down below the words, and the smiles, and the optimism, and all the reasonableness, someone insisted that i couldn't stay.

i remember running in victoria park, one of those days. i had come to london and it was the definition of a city. vibrant and beautiful. unlike me, who was ossified, except for the hours when i dashed – haphazardly – through the adjacent boroughs. there was no point in being anywhere, no point in arriving anywhere. that was the point. i made that my point.

«bear in mind the past and the future, but don't ever let them rob you of the present. because that's all you've got», the lady in the last scene suggests. and that, not fitness, not competition, not some neoliberal self-improvement bullshit, is the purpose of running.